Tuesday, April 21, 2009

If, objectively

If I'm not pregnant this time, I will be on my first unmedicated cycle in a year.

If I ovulate, great and awesome. Let's hope that the problem of a year ago doesn't rear its ugly head again.

If not, and we'll know from the OPKs and possibly a progesterone test, then we will do a progesterone dump to bring on the next.

Jeff's numbers are low enough that IUIs might not be worth the money. We will find out on May 4 if this is the case.

If the numbers are good enough, we will do some variety of "super ovulation" injections, a trigger shot, and an IUI. The odds are, apparently, 20% each time.

If the numbers are not good enough, it may be due to a problem that can be fixed. That would be awesome.

If there's not a solution, our only real chance will be IVFs.

IVF has never really been an option. So many moral conundrums. We'd have to find a way through that mire. If there's no way through, then we're not going in.

This is very hard to swallow.

"This is what it means to be held
How it feels
When the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved
And to know
That the promise was
When everything fell, we'd be held."

3 comments:

Maura said...

*holding your hand* Well, fuck. Fuck, fuckity fuck.

Maura said...

I mean that as a stronger version of "shit." I don't mean that as an order. Though, by all means, if you feel the need...

Martin said...

If your moral issues are what I think they are, there are ways around it, they may reduce your chances somewhat, but the choices you have may still be within what you are happy with morally.